Yesterday, my Bishop told me that I was a strong person. Why do I have such a hard time believing him?
My Bishop told me that I have three things I need to do to become successful through this trial.
1. Replace my negative thinking and habits with fun in my life.
2. Pray to my Heavenly Father and ask for help.
3. Ask for help from my family and friends.
These things are so much easier said, then done. My whole life, I have been taught that I need to stand on my own two feet...never be a burden on others.
I struggle, honestly, I struggle feeling like a good mother, wife, friend, and child of God. I am trying to be something to everyone...and I am coming up short. My kids, are they happy? I can't read to them every night like I used to, and I lose my patience so much quicker than before. Keeping Chris happy and alive is a daily fight...I am scared that I am not going to make it, I am not enough to keep this household going. My friends do so much for me, and I can't serve them like I want, their hearts are so golden and I fear my neediness is running them dry. My Heavenly Father probably looks at me and thinks, there is more you can be doing!
I know these thoughts may be irrational, but I am having a tough time. My heart is tired, my brain is tired; the natural man in me is winning this fight today.
When people look at me, do they look at me and think, "this woman is lazy, and can be doing more!"
Maybe...my best is coming up short, or I am just tired.
Sorry for the negative post, I am working on being strong-er.
On a positive note, I ran/walked my mile in 24.23 minutes, and have lost 8 pounds!
Much love....
Here is what I fight for....
My Bishop told me that I have three things I need to do to become successful through this trial.
1. Replace my negative thinking and habits with fun in my life.
2. Pray to my Heavenly Father and ask for help.
3. Ask for help from my family and friends.
These things are so much easier said, then done. My whole life, I have been taught that I need to stand on my own two feet...never be a burden on others.
I struggle, honestly, I struggle feeling like a good mother, wife, friend, and child of God. I am trying to be something to everyone...and I am coming up short. My kids, are they happy? I can't read to them every night like I used to, and I lose my patience so much quicker than before. Keeping Chris happy and alive is a daily fight...I am scared that I am not going to make it, I am not enough to keep this household going. My friends do so much for me, and I can't serve them like I want, their hearts are so golden and I fear my neediness is running them dry. My Heavenly Father probably looks at me and thinks, there is more you can be doing!
I know these thoughts may be irrational, but I am having a tough time. My heart is tired, my brain is tired; the natural man in me is winning this fight today.
When people look at me, do they look at me and think, "this woman is lazy, and can be doing more!"
Maybe...my best is coming up short, or I am just tired.
Sorry for the negative post, I am working on being strong-er.
On a positive note, I ran/walked my mile in 24.23 minutes, and have lost 8 pounds!
Much love....
Here is what I fight for....
We love you guys!!!! Brook, you're an amazing women and you will make it through this trial!
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