I am just sitting here, reloading my ipod, waiting to hop on the treadmill, am I really waiting or procrastinating? We will say, waiting.
As I am sitting here, I thought, I am going to write on my blog, I haven't written for a while. I have lots of things that I need to write about, but I seem to never just sit down and write anymore, maybe that is a problem...I think I will change that.
The last few months have been really eye-opening to me, and it has been good in some ways and bad in others. I am a strong person, and I believe that whatever is thrown at me, I can handle, I have so far, right? I have decided to make some new goals for myself this past week, and I want to write them down and have them "out there," so, I can be held accountable for them.
One, I am going to be the best wife and mother I can possibly be...and that means I am going to try my hardest to love myself and stop the negative thoughts in my head, this one is hard, but I am going to do it! I am going to stop thinking, "I should have done that, or done this..." I do my best, and that is all that matters. Period.
Two, I am going to enjoy my routine, I know this sounds a bit crazy, but I am going to stick to it, and love it. In the morning at 5:00 when my alarm goes off, I am going to get my "happy" butt out of bed and make Chris' breakfast and lunch with much love. Then, at 7:00, I will snuggle my Riley out of her warm bed and LOVINGLY get her ready for school. At times, I will admit, I get very impatient with Riley and I will be working on speaking more kind to her in the morning. I will make Riley's breakfast and lunch also with much love...hey, my mom did it, why can't I?
Then, when everyone is out the door, except for Ruby and she is napping, I will get my "loving butt" on the treadmill and enjoy my time alone. I am doing it for me and only me because I deserve to feel great...and eventually look great.
I enjoy spending time with Ruby, it is preparing me for the "early" years again, I hope, when we finally have more children in our home. I enjoy taking Ruby and Pepper (our puppy) for walks in the afternoon before nap time, it is great to just walk in the sun.
During the day, I hope to accomplish much, clean the house, and make a great healthy dinner for my little family...I usually don't have a problem with this, but Riley is getting so busy, I forget to have dinner ready by 4 on Tuesdays and Thursdays, and we have to eat after the games and practices...I will get it figured out.
Recently, I have been called as an Activities Day leader, as well as, teaching the 8 to 10-year-olds in Primary (which we have done for almost two years). It will be interesting to work with girls instead of boys (I served as a Scout leader for nearly 5 years).
So, my days and weeks are pretty full, between Soccer, Activity Days, Homework, doctors appointments, Chris' infusions, tending Ruby, and just being a mom. I am just like every other mom out there, trying to survive, I hope I appear as though I am surving at least.
Three, Chris and I are offical Foster Parents, and we are just waiting to meet with our RFC. We are so excited for the opportunites that are in our future. I am making a goal today, that I will make a difference in the lives of those children that I have the honor of helping. Heavenly Father's children, no matter their situation, deserve a person that is in their "corner," fighting for them, and loving them. I pray that I can be such a person.
Four, I will serve people more...my mom and dad taught me at a very young age that we are to serve our fellow man. I believe that I serve already, but I need to do more, and teach Riley the importance of serving and the importance of humility. I need to look out my window everyday and see what needs, need to be filled.
These goals may seem goofy to you, but to me, they make my world seem more sane. I need to strive to be a better person, and love myself as Christ loves me, I believe I can do it, and I will. I am not perfect, and I will make mistakes, but I am done getting down on myself for falling short at times. I know that I will not always get my house perfect or maybe forget to get dinner done on time, and I will probably not "love" getting up at 5 every morning, but it is okay, as long as I try.
My ipod is done loading, I need to get on that treadmill.
As I am sitting here, I thought, I am going to write on my blog, I haven't written for a while. I have lots of things that I need to write about, but I seem to never just sit down and write anymore, maybe that is a problem...I think I will change that.
The last few months have been really eye-opening to me, and it has been good in some ways and bad in others. I am a strong person, and I believe that whatever is thrown at me, I can handle, I have so far, right? I have decided to make some new goals for myself this past week, and I want to write them down and have them "out there," so, I can be held accountable for them.
One, I am going to be the best wife and mother I can possibly be...and that means I am going to try my hardest to love myself and stop the negative thoughts in my head, this one is hard, but I am going to do it! I am going to stop thinking, "I should have done that, or done this..." I do my best, and that is all that matters. Period.
Two, I am going to enjoy my routine, I know this sounds a bit crazy, but I am going to stick to it, and love it. In the morning at 5:00 when my alarm goes off, I am going to get my "happy" butt out of bed and make Chris' breakfast and lunch with much love. Then, at 7:00, I will snuggle my Riley out of her warm bed and LOVINGLY get her ready for school. At times, I will admit, I get very impatient with Riley and I will be working on speaking more kind to her in the morning. I will make Riley's breakfast and lunch also with much love...hey, my mom did it, why can't I?
Then, when everyone is out the door, except for Ruby and she is napping, I will get my "loving butt" on the treadmill and enjoy my time alone. I am doing it for me and only me because I deserve to feel great...and eventually look great.
I enjoy spending time with Ruby, it is preparing me for the "early" years again, I hope, when we finally have more children in our home. I enjoy taking Ruby and Pepper (our puppy) for walks in the afternoon before nap time, it is great to just walk in the sun.
During the day, I hope to accomplish much, clean the house, and make a great healthy dinner for my little family...I usually don't have a problem with this, but Riley is getting so busy, I forget to have dinner ready by 4 on Tuesdays and Thursdays, and we have to eat after the games and practices...I will get it figured out.
Recently, I have been called as an Activities Day leader, as well as, teaching the 8 to 10-year-olds in Primary (which we have done for almost two years). It will be interesting to work with girls instead of boys (I served as a Scout leader for nearly 5 years).
So, my days and weeks are pretty full, between Soccer, Activity Days, Homework, doctors appointments, Chris' infusions, tending Ruby, and just being a mom. I am just like every other mom out there, trying to survive, I hope I appear as though I am surving at least.
Three, Chris and I are offical Foster Parents, and we are just waiting to meet with our RFC. We are so excited for the opportunites that are in our future. I am making a goal today, that I will make a difference in the lives of those children that I have the honor of helping. Heavenly Father's children, no matter their situation, deserve a person that is in their "corner," fighting for them, and loving them. I pray that I can be such a person.
Four, I will serve people more...my mom and dad taught me at a very young age that we are to serve our fellow man. I believe that I serve already, but I need to do more, and teach Riley the importance of serving and the importance of humility. I need to look out my window everyday and see what needs, need to be filled.
These goals may seem goofy to you, but to me, they make my world seem more sane. I need to strive to be a better person, and love myself as Christ loves me, I believe I can do it, and I will. I am not perfect, and I will make mistakes, but I am done getting down on myself for falling short at times. I know that I will not always get my house perfect or maybe forget to get dinner done on time, and I will probably not "love" getting up at 5 every morning, but it is okay, as long as I try.
My ipod is done loading, I need to get on that treadmill.
Brook you amaze me! I am so thankful you are my friend!
ReplyDeleteYay! I check every day, and I was so happy to see a new blog post! I miss ya. Sounds like you have a lot going on. I like your goals, (you know I share so many of the same ones!) Anyway, Good luck! You can do it! And don't forget the most important: One day at a time! Love ya, -Trudy
ReplyDeleteI am my worst critic!!! I Love the post life is hectic but when you sit down at the end of the day ask yourself what was your highlight of the day and that makes it all worth while and forget the negative as no matter what goals you have the negativity will get to it and remember there is always tomorrow and it will be another great Adventure :) Denise
ReplyDeletethanks for the updated.
ReplyDeleteI too am behind on my blog.
Doesn't help that my computers keep going down.
I also don't think your goals are goofy.
They are wonderful.
Keep the good work.