Broccoli.

To tell the truth, I have been putting this post off for some time now; all because I could not think of a title. Finally, the title, "broccoli" came to me tonight at 12:30 in the morning...I take it when it comes.

A few years ago Riley had a video made by Sesame Street, and in this video it had a rap song titled, "Broccoli." The song is very addictive...one of those songs that do not leave your head soon enough. It is now 2009...and I still have this song in my head. Every now and again I will need to write the word broccoli down and I forget how it is spelled and I, well, sing the song..."B R O C C O L I...broccoli, broccoli!" Thus, my title is born.

Thinking of a title for this post has been difficult because I wanted it to be just "right." All of you took time to write the "right" words down for me, and I wanted to show the same respect to you. I will explain in a minute, why I chose, "Broccoli."

Several posts ago, for those of you that did not read it, I posted about my inability to have biological children. Immediately, I felt embarrassed and started to regret writing the post, and I woke up the next morning hoping nobody had read it yet, and was ready to delete. Unfortunately, for me, a couple of you did read the post and commented on it....what was I going to do, and how was I going to explain why I had written the post. I could not take back the post now...it was out, it was in the open, and I just had to let it be.

The response has been amazing to me, and it has changed my view on my life, one of those views that impact just how you view yourself. When I was writing that post about Infertility, I was feeling angry and sad...and alone, and how wrong I was in that assumption. The love I have felt from the comments made on that post, "Slump," really made me realize how many people are in my life that mean so much to me, and are backing me up...even if I rarely see them.

Becky and Judi were among the first to respond and I thank you so much for the hopes that you gave me; I pray that you will be blessed in your life, and that all your dreams come true, as well, and I hope that you know I am here for you when you need me. Becky, you will never know what you have done...

Erika and Rebecca, I felt your heart and struggles in your comments about the heartaches of having a stillborn and inability of getting pregnant. Becca, I pray that you have a child soon, you will be an awesome mom...you are an awesome friend. Please know, that I am here for you if you need an ear to listen.

Ruth, my new long lost friend, you knew me when Chris and I lived in Cedar...we love Cedar! We miss you...and your amazing spirits! Thanks for coming back into my life and reminding me who I was back then. I hope I can help you like you have helped me....

Erinn, where do I start! My "frousin." I love ya! When we were younger you were so tiny...you and Amy always ran around and I got to hang out with the boys. I am glad that we have gotten to know each other better through these past couple of months. You are an amazing mother and wife. You have shown me that family really can be friends. If you ever need anything....please e-mail or call me! We will babysit! I adore Camrynn and so does Riley.   

Trudy, Trudy, Trudy, what would I do without you! You are truly the little angel on my shoulder! You make me a better person everyday! Thank you for your friendship...you are an amazing person. I am blessed to have you in my life. Maybe...I can fit on your shoulder one of these days!

Raquel, and my family up in the "big" city! I love you all! It makes me happy to know that you read my little blog, and get to find out more about me and my family. It actually makes my mom proud, I can hear it in her voice, when she hears that you have read my blog. My mom thinks it is so neat that we are still connected even though we hardly see each other! We need to get together more! Raquel, you are wise beyond your years...you really know how to put words together on paper that have real impact.

Now, I know some didn't comment, but I love you all for reading and praying for Chris and I! Thank you!

So, back to my title. As I read over those comments everyone made, and as I have discussed this post with various people on a personal level...I have come to realize that we are never really ever alone, there are people out there that love and think about us all the time! I think about all of you! Because of you....I have been able to pull out of my slump and realize that Riley IS Chris and I put together! Riley has my sarcasm, Chris' temper, and both of our love of Christ and a kind Heavenly Father. Riley is me....just browner. So, the point is...no matter how old we get, we still have to learn new tricks to get us through life. Example...even though I am 32 and should know how to spell broccoli, I still have to sing that stupid song to remember.

Thank you all for helping me remember....